The moment of truth!

Today I got my mark for Fashion concepts and was happily surprised i got a 68, which I was very pleased with. I still feel like I'm always one step behind everyone else, maybe its because I feel like my passion for the course is dying and I'm getting a litle bored of uni. I can't wait to finish and get into the real world (I know I will probably take this all back once I'm working) but I wanna do soemthing new and exciting!
On a more positive front I have a work placement to do for a week over Easter with a company called "Fame will come later"-should be interesting.
I also have an interview for another placement on 27th April,which I'm really excited about its more studio based but graduates work looks amazing and really suits the pathway I'm doing!I just need to get my portfolio ready for that, so I'm confident with what I'm doing/saying!FINGERS-CROSSED!
Sometimes I wish I'd done the other pathway,its not that I think I would enjoy it more, I feel its more realistic to the "Fashion world" and they have learnt a lot more about the industry, making, trends, tailoring, shop reports etc...sometimes I just feel like I've missing out on important skills. I know I could take my own time to catch up on these, and I have done, but there isnt enough time to go over everything!
I'm hoping that where I have missed out on these skills I will learn them through work placements etc.
We got our new brief today aswell, which sounds a lot like Fashion, Art and Culture...I need to re-read it again to get it straight in my head. I don't really know how I feel about it yet.
Just when you think you have some time to chill-out you realise there is still enterprise, crit and a new project to do!
It just never stops....and when it does I don't know what to do With myself!
So I suppose I wouldn't want it any other way!

Ignoring something does NOT mean it will disappear!

This weekend has been a failure...I have done no work so far for fashion concepts. Yes I have been working at Urban, but really thats no excuse other people can manage to work and go to uni-and so should I. Its almost as though there is so much to do and its making me completely stand still! I have never really been one of those people that thinks they wont make the deadline-but this project is the first one that I've honestly felt it about! Yet still I have tme to do everything but my work. Its stupid,I need to get a move on!
I've written list after list and hardly completed anything....I don't think it helps that I changed my idea 3 times....right okay I'm gonna try and get on with some now...and stop avoiding it!
I've even done some crit and enterprise stuff instead....oh and no luck on the placement front....Oh god,Dawn get off and do something!!!

Get up and move on...please!

Today I feel rubbish...I can't seem to focus on my work and can't get anything done! I know people say that everyone has days like this, but I ALWAYS have these days!What.Is.My.Problem?!
I feel like I have so much to do and yet I can't even start!Throughout this whole day I have only done 1 page for Fashion Concepts!Earlier I did go to the Wallpaper exhibition with Siobhan and Vickie, then I slept (for about 4 hours,I'd call it a nap) and then I woke and completed 1 PAGE, JUST 1!In about 5 hours!
Yeah, I've started reading for crit, but I haven't done any of my "tasks", I don't have a title either I just know the theme!And don't even get me started on enterprise-I'm sure I'm gonna fail!
Sometimes I just think whats the point?!I mean, this is just a small part of my life and shouldn't I be enjoying my youth?It just seems like I'm constantly stressed and worrying about work!
A lot has happened in these past few months and I know you have to just pick yourself up again and move on...but why is it all so difficult.Life shouldn't be this hard...surely?
I think I just need a break (I've just come back from Prague!!!Idiot!)at home though!See my friends and family and not worry about all this!It's not worth it!
Anyway, I'm gonna try and get on with some stuff...TRY!

On a more positive note....I quite like this, I think its by Wolfgang or something like that!

Really enjoying this...

A little bit of advertisement from, french fashion duo - Marithé and François Girbaud...


Some work from Ivan Puig. I really like this, could work well as Guerilla Marketing...

BLAH

A little bit of P-town..





Back at college now...I spent my reading week in Prague!It was lush and so nice to get away from everything!Although, I came back with more then I bargained for....don't worry - it was just the common cold and cough but now I have no voice!I had so many ideas before I went to Prague and now I'm back I feel too ill to get on with it all!It's so annoying-I have such a dizzy head all the time!I'm hoping my next week I will be fit as a fiddle.I don't get ill that often at all (I think I caught it on the plane!).
Anyway, I did manage to do some reading for crit in Prague and also took lots of photographs.
I feel like Fashion Concepts is a brilliant project, but its difficult to get your ideas down on paper-I'm hoping this is just one of my usual "I can't do it!" moments and it will fade soon. I am enjoying though and have lots of ideas, so I suppose thats good.
Work placements aren't looking too great Im definately not gonna get one for easter which is what I had hoped-I've given up a bit to be honest. I've must have contacted over 30 people...okay its 35, and yes I did just count! Not to mention the people I've called...well, I've only called about 3/4 people. I should get back on it really...
Enterprise-I hate. I can't wait for it to be over...its so much work and really difficult to work in a group, especially when they're only 3 and I know we sacked 1 person, but still some groups have 5 people!!c'mon!It's all too much for me! I just hope we pass at least!
Right, I need to try and get on with some work now.

RESULT!

I got my Digital Realisation mark back 66...I'm we'll chuffed!I really thougth I was gonna get 50something!I think its because I started comparing my work to people that always get really high 70s and I'm just not that girl!I don't think its done me any harm to compare its just a little difficult on the confidence side, but if it makes me work twice as hard it can't be bad!
We receieved our next brief aswell...the project is really open and you can be yourself-THANK GOD!And IAN IS BACK!YES!
Im finding it difficult to get started but I have loads of ideas...just need a little time!
I really hope I do well...
but that's down to moi...

Done and very much dusted!

Got there in the end....



Digital Realisation - DONE!
Thank you very much!