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My portfolio is not ready and my interview is next week! I really need to get it sorted but I have loads more to edit and make up then I first thought!


OH DEAR

Hopefully next year I will have learnt from all these stupid mistakes.

SPRING!.....Cold!!!

Right, so other than writing in my blog I really haven't done much work. BUMMER! I'm meant to be on my placement today, but she didn't need me as she doesn't have much work for me to do, so I should be in tomorrow. It's a blessing in disguise because I feel so rotten today - I have a cold, which has sprung from no where! I'm drinking so much fluid, I might as well be on a drip!!
I have managed to do 2 crit tasks today though, and select a few exhibitions I want to see while I'm in London. I'm hoping they will help me with Research Practices (which I haven't started) I kind of know what I want to do though, its just getting the research together! Lots of videos and photoshoots would be ideal, but we will see if that ACTUALLY ever happens!
I'm hoping to try and do a couple more crit tasks today and maybe sort out enterprise a little bit, but I'll see how far I actually get.
Oh and on the work placement front I have decided what pieces I want to go in my portfolio for my next interview (on 28th) just need to edit them a little. I have also heard off Wonderland mag asking me when I'm available for their internship-so fingers-crossed. Haven't heard anything back yet though.
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I'm off to get some fruit and some more water-I WILL GET OVER THIS COLD!

Reserach Practices

I'm thinking of linking my research practices with crit by looking into mythologies...I am then probably going to look into grimm tales/fairytales etc. I think this would have a lot of scope!

These images taken from trendland are amazing:
This image is photoshoot by Annie Leibovitz for Christian Lacroix



Above:Printemps window display in Paris I believe!

Oh and I also love the work from this illustrator....Coco....



Some exciting ideas for my project!

EASTER SUNDAY!

The Easter break has started and I have done no work! This is the usual Shindler cycle-can't get started, gets started enjoys it, worries that its not good enough, starts to hate it, gets mark and realises things arent that bad!
So I've decided to try an ignore myself...if that makes any sense. I know I will start eventually, I just need to really think about this project as its very much like fashion,art and culture which I enjoyed but got a rubbish mark for!
I also need to get on with crit portfolio and enterprise..I think I'm gonna try and do some of that to do as I'm not working at Urban what with it being closed for EASTER SUNDAY! No instead I'm in Leeds all alone-I'm gonna say its part of becoming an adult..but really I have no mates!!ha. Its fine though because I went home to see my family and friends last week and had to come back up North to work, so I'm not really a loser!
Lets just hope I managed to get something done today!

The moment of truth!

Today I got my mark for Fashion concepts and was happily surprised i got a 68, which I was very pleased with. I still feel like I'm always one step behind everyone else, maybe its because I feel like my passion for the course is dying and I'm getting a litle bored of uni. I can't wait to finish and get into the real world (I know I will probably take this all back once I'm working) but I wanna do soemthing new and exciting!
On a more positive front I have a work placement to do for a week over Easter with a company called "Fame will come later"-should be interesting.
I also have an interview for another placement on 27th April,which I'm really excited about its more studio based but graduates work looks amazing and really suits the pathway I'm doing!I just need to get my portfolio ready for that, so I'm confident with what I'm doing/saying!FINGERS-CROSSED!
Sometimes I wish I'd done the other pathway,its not that I think I would enjoy it more, I feel its more realistic to the "Fashion world" and they have learnt a lot more about the industry, making, trends, tailoring, shop reports etc...sometimes I just feel like I've missing out on important skills. I know I could take my own time to catch up on these, and I have done, but there isnt enough time to go over everything!
I'm hoping that where I have missed out on these skills I will learn them through work placements etc.
We got our new brief today aswell, which sounds a lot like Fashion, Art and Culture...I need to re-read it again to get it straight in my head. I don't really know how I feel about it yet.
Just when you think you have some time to chill-out you realise there is still enterprise, crit and a new project to do!
It just never stops....and when it does I don't know what to do With myself!
So I suppose I wouldn't want it any other way!

Ignoring something does NOT mean it will disappear!

This weekend has been a failure...I have done no work so far for fashion concepts. Yes I have been working at Urban, but really thats no excuse other people can manage to work and go to uni-and so should I. Its almost as though there is so much to do and its making me completely stand still! I have never really been one of those people that thinks they wont make the deadline-but this project is the first one that I've honestly felt it about! Yet still I have tme to do everything but my work. Its stupid,I need to get a move on!
I've written list after list and hardly completed anything....I don't think it helps that I changed my idea 3 times....right okay I'm gonna try and get on with some now...and stop avoiding it!
I've even done some crit and enterprise stuff instead....oh and no luck on the placement front....Oh god,Dawn get off and do something!!!

Get up and move on...please!

Today I feel rubbish...I can't seem to focus on my work and can't get anything done! I know people say that everyone has days like this, but I ALWAYS have these days!What.Is.My.Problem?!
I feel like I have so much to do and yet I can't even start!Throughout this whole day I have only done 1 page for Fashion Concepts!Earlier I did go to the Wallpaper exhibition with Siobhan and Vickie, then I slept (for about 4 hours,I'd call it a nap) and then I woke and completed 1 PAGE, JUST 1!In about 5 hours!
Yeah, I've started reading for crit, but I haven't done any of my "tasks", I don't have a title either I just know the theme!And don't even get me started on enterprise-I'm sure I'm gonna fail!
Sometimes I just think whats the point?!I mean, this is just a small part of my life and shouldn't I be enjoying my youth?It just seems like I'm constantly stressed and worrying about work!
A lot has happened in these past few months and I know you have to just pick yourself up again and move on...but why is it all so difficult.Life shouldn't be this hard...surely?
I think I just need a break (I've just come back from Prague!!!Idiot!)at home though!See my friends and family and not worry about all this!It's not worth it!
Anyway, I'm gonna try and get on with some stuff...TRY!

On a more positive note....I quite like this, I think its by Wolfgang or something like that!